have not blog properly for a thousand of years. hah.

my hair sucks now. why? coz it's super dry. so ppl out there, dun bleached ur hair if you dont have to.

i hit my knee against the metal thingy today. sucks. now it hurts so bad when i knee down. boo~

i've changed my mindset again. saw tammy while i was going home. she was pretty, petite n skinny. the kind of girls lots of guys would like. but after the 'nyp scandal' thingy. i guess pretty much ppl view her as shameless. as in after so many ppl knowing bout the things she had done, she still can go to school like nothing ever happened. but, think lah. wad if you were in her shoes. she didnt wan the videos to be exposed either. she was a victim too. she did everyone had the right to condemn her? NO! who's there to judge. do you even have the right to judge what's right from wrong? DO YOU? you dont. why? cause different people have different perceptions. not everyone is brought up the same way. the culture is different. so is the environment. so you cant expect everyone to be the same.

what if you change the surrounding. and all this happened in the western country. den would that be so much of a condemning thingy going on? i mean, what do you expect her to do? dont study forever? or stay at home and cry? and blame everything to herself until one day, she cant take it anymore and kills herself?

i was thinking, why are singaporeans so narrow minded? it's not as if she killed someone or something like that. so if a porn star does that then it's alright? haha. life's juz not fair to everyone!

and another issue. SEX. what's the great deal of having sex? benjamin once told me that on the average, girls lose their virginity at 17. so if any one had had sex before marriage, then it's considered not decent? wake up man. 'virginity is not virtuality, it's the lack of opportunity' quoted from wj. it's something like that if i didnt remember wrongly. it's quite true lah i think. but well, ppl will beg to differ i guess. i mean is sex really a bad thing? it IS unless you do it for a motive. like having sex to make your partner stay with you. unless you're the SPG, izzy. who does it to satisfy her needs and to get pampered by those ang mohs.

but if you make love cause of love, or you're married, den on a spiritual level, what's wrong with that? didnt god create us to, like, reproduce for the next generation? to replace the dead? it's also another step to improve on your relationship what! it's only that it's on a more intimate level.

next, kissing. people view kissing in public as obscene. it's often that people tend to stare one kind at those kissing in public. especially teenagers. but what's wrong with that? it is obscene to like give a peck? cultural differences. haha. so it's not obscene for married couples to kiss in public? so it's sweet for them to do that? well, as i've said. life isn't fair lah.

so think about it. cant you people be a lil' more open minded?

jin xian saw me. but he didnt call me. duhh. but i was walking fast. so it's good enough tat he noticed me. haha. he saw my feeling then. he msged and ask what happened. haha. such a nice person.

soon colin and kero will overtake xiaxue. i think she'll be damn pissed to be overtaken by them. lol.

'I believe a best friend is someone whom you are not afraid to quarrel with, or rather, I should say, speak your mind with. And even after being honest about the comments towards each other, both of you are still as close, or even closer than before! They never gossip about each other behind each other's back. No, they never gossip about one another. Instead, when someone speaks ill of his/her pal, he/she tries to take the comments very seriously and help his/her pal become a better person lest they get stabbed by others even further..

A best friend should also be someone who truly cares, and someone who would be there for you, rain or shine. He/she should just be a phonecall away. They can also almost finish up each other's sentences. They will hide nothing from each other, and will not have selfish thoughts towards each other. They should never lie to each other, honesty is just so important although I know it is human nature to tell a white lie occasionally. On the spiritual level, they will always edify each other, pray for each other and understands each's needs, although neither of them are God..

They love each other alot, but it's just a love between friends. They can't do without each other, but not to the extent that when one dies, another has to join the other in Hades! They'll sacrifice for each other and has complete trust in each other..That is my ideal kind of best friend. Although I am also not as good as wad I wrote above, I am striving to be. And even though I am still far from good, I will work hard to find such a friend..'

i read this on someone's blog. everything's so true. i didnt manage to have one.